A Canadian author shared a shocking revelation in her poignant memoir, "A Widow's Guide to Dead Ba****ds," which she uncovered about her late husband Sean's secret life following his death in 2015 and what she did after that shocked the entire nation.
In her book, writer Jessica Waite , while attempting to find the contact information for the Houston hospital where his body was being held, stumbled upon her husband's browsing history on his iPad, which included searches for " Houston escorts ," their prices, and locations, New York Post reported.
As Waite delved deeper into her husband's hidden world, she discovered that his deception extended far beyond a few encounters with escorts.
Over the course of several months, she learned that Sean had been regularly cheating on her with multiple women and had even rented an apartment in Colorado to facilitate his extramarital affairs .
Moreover, he had lied about working late on numerous occasions, instead using that time to download and categorise hundreds of explicit pornographic videos on his personal computer.
Overwhelmed by the extent of her husband's betrayals, Waite found herself grappling with the harsh reality of his double life.After finding this she did something which no one had expected. In a moment of despair and detachment, she cut open the bag containing his ashes and mixed some of them into her dog's feces in the garden.
“I’ve desecrated the remains of my partner in life,” Waite wrote.
“But then, in despair and guilt, took more of his ashes — and actually ate them. The remains feel dry against my fingertips, coarser than baking powder, grainier than salt. They mix with the teary water, a mineral mud on the back of my tongue. I swallow.”
Despite having found a new partner, Waite admits that the pain and sense of loss caused by her late husband's duplicity continue to affect her daily.
"I feel better and stronger than before, but I still cry almost every day, and I still feel like a part of me has died," Waite wrote. "Because the part of me that existed within Sean did."
Her memoir serves as a raw and honest account of the devastating impact of betrayal and the long road to healing.
In her book, writer Jessica Waite , while attempting to find the contact information for the Houston hospital where his body was being held, stumbled upon her husband's browsing history on his iPad, which included searches for " Houston escorts ," their prices, and locations, New York Post reported.
As Waite delved deeper into her husband's hidden world, she discovered that his deception extended far beyond a few encounters with escorts.
Over the course of several months, she learned that Sean had been regularly cheating on her with multiple women and had even rented an apartment in Colorado to facilitate his extramarital affairs .
Moreover, he had lied about working late on numerous occasions, instead using that time to download and categorise hundreds of explicit pornographic videos on his personal computer.
Overwhelmed by the extent of her husband's betrayals, Waite found herself grappling with the harsh reality of his double life.After finding this she did something which no one had expected. In a moment of despair and detachment, she cut open the bag containing his ashes and mixed some of them into her dog's feces in the garden.
“I’ve desecrated the remains of my partner in life,” Waite wrote.
“But then, in despair and guilt, took more of his ashes — and actually ate them. The remains feel dry against my fingertips, coarser than baking powder, grainier than salt. They mix with the teary water, a mineral mud on the back of my tongue. I swallow.”
Despite having found a new partner, Waite admits that the pain and sense of loss caused by her late husband's duplicity continue to affect her daily.
"I feel better and stronger than before, but I still cry almost every day, and I still feel like a part of me has died," Waite wrote. "Because the part of me that existed within Sean did."
Her memoir serves as a raw and honest account of the devastating impact of betrayal and the long road to healing.
